February 2012
1 post
Shape Shift
I want to be the book that sleeps beside your bed, the one you reach for when you cannot find the backs of your eyes and paint with your own ink to highlight the sentences that highlighted something inside you. The bent pages and water damaged spine and the ring of brown where your coffee mug couldn’t help but sit when the skin on your fingers couldn’t handle the heat any longer....
November 2011
1 post
like the winter rains,
He will come to us.
1 “Come, let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds. 2 After two days he will revive us; on the third day he will restore us, that we may live in his presence. 3 Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will...
April 2011
1 post
what i love about nighttime:
bedtime prayers
March 2011
1 post
“Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in...”
February 2011
1 post
on the twenty third of february
the knees of your blue jeans got a little sandy
my knees felt a little shaky
our foreheads met
and you looked me in the eye
your mouth started moving
and my breaths came quicker
the wind blew
and the waves crashed
natural
“you know i want to spend the rest of my life with you”
i knew
“i have something for you”
and you put it on my finger
November 2010
2 posts
July 2010
3 posts
June 2010
2 posts
Tonight I want you.
I want you here, with me.
I want you right now.
Standing in the doorway,
Your perfect green eyes
Looking straight ahead.
Tonight I am here.
Here, in an empty room.
Sitting on my bed, legs crossed.
My tricking brown eyes
Looking at you,
Framed by wood,
Looking at me.
Tonight I am alone,
And I want you here,
Now,
With me.
April 2010
4 posts
When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it’s safe inside your mouth.
Jodi Picoult Handle with Care
a fish hook, an open eye.
3/28
when he sleeps, the snoring doesn’t bother me: the rhythmic growl, gravel shoveled across the sidewalk of his throat.
it is grasping, desperate way in which he takes in air—his gulping lungs as if every dream was filled with water and he is trying to inflate the life jacket under his skin. i babble in my sleep. he believes i am trying to tell him how my heart works, says he will...
in every breath
in every breath if you’re the center of your own desires you’ll lose the grace of your beloved
but if in every breath you blow away your self claim the ecstasy of love will soon arrive
in every breath if you’re the center of your own thoughts the sadness of autumn will fall on you
but if in every breath you strip naked just like a winter the joy of spring will grow from within
...
March 2010
7 posts
Last night.
I want to build a house with you.
I want to build your house.
I want to have a big family with you.
I want to go to Africa with you. While you’re nursing people, I want to build houses for people.
I want to grow old with you.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I want you for my own, and nobody else.
I want to keep you safe with me.
I love all of you, every part of you....
“When I have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. In so far as I learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God and instead of God, I shall be moving towards the state in which I shall not love my earthly dearest at all. When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed but increased.” -C.S....
“The gracious person loves without worrying about whether the person he loves is worthy of his love. Or perhaps it would be better to say that the gracious person sees what is valuable in the person he loves, and does not worry about whether it is more or less valuable than what could be found in someone else he might have loved.” -Robert Merrihew Adams
The Purpose for the Pain:
“The idea that God could take the ugliest, darkest corners of our lives and expose it, make our secrets transparent and shine through them, is what fuels me. I want nothing more than to share my heart with the hope that God would take my pain and give it purpose, beauty and use it to redeem those that may find themselves somewhere in these pages. There is a purpose for the pain. It is called...
Genesis 20:
11 Abraham replied, “I said to myself, ‘There is surely no fear of God in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.’ 12 Besides, she really is my sister, the daughter of my father though not of my mother; and she became my wife. 13 And when God had me wander from my father’s household, I said to her, ‘This is how you can show your love to me: Everywhere we...
Deuteronomy 10:
12 And now, O Israel, what does the LORD your God ask of you but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul, 13 and to observe the LORD’s commands and decrees that I am giving you today for your own good?
O Lord and Master of my life, take from me the spirit of sloth, faintheartedness, lust of power, and idle talk. But give rather the spirit of chastity, humility, patience and love to your servant. Yes, O Lord and King, grant me to see my own sin and not to judge my brother, for You are blessed from all ages to all ages. Amen.
February 2010
9 posts
“i love you, jen. i really do.”
“I want you back and forth,
I want you up and down,
I want you inside out.
I don’t want anyone else,
I don’t want anyone else.”
One of these days, You’ll miss your train, And come stay with me… It’s always say goodnight and go We’ll have drinks, And talk about things and, Any excuse to stay awake with you… You’ll sleep here, I’ll sleep there, But then the heating may be down again, At my convenience… We’d be good, We’d be great together…
to feel regret for something you’ve done is exponentially more bearable than to regret something you’ve never had the courage to do.
The Quiet World by Jeffery McDaniel In an effort to get people to look into each other’s eyes more, and also to appease the mutes, the government has decided to allot each person exactly one hundred and sixty-seven words, per day. When the phone rings, I put it in to my ear Without saying hello. In the restaurant I point at chicken noodle soup. I am adjusting well to the new way. Late at...
there is no magic in wishes alone. its the wish granter, the magic maker that breathes hope into life. the few who show others they are loved by noticing the insignificant, remembering the important, and showing others the best in themselves: these are the magic makers.
January 2010
3 posts
There’s always a catch.
It is for this reason that most of us would rather love than be loved. Almost everyone wants to be the lover. And the curt truth is that, in a deep secret way, the state of being beloved is intolerable to many. The beloved fears and hates the lover, and with the best of reasons. For the lover is forever trying to strip bare his beloved. The lover craves any possible relation with the beloved, even...
December 2009
10 posts
Sometimes I wish I had never met you.
… like right now.
“When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake,...”
“What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are...”
“You’re what kept me alive. The thought of you. The way your eyes look into...”
– Roswell
“We are not held back by the love we didn’t receive in the past, but by the...”
– Marianne Williamson
John 15
Jesus Is the Vine—Followers Are Branches
1“I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser.
2”Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit.
3“You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you.
4“Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch...
November 2009
1 post
And I said I know it well.
That secret that we know
That we don’t know how to tell.